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Quote (Mushroomz @ Fri - Mar 30 2012 - 06:00:05)
Kind of arrogant to think good would save you from a drug overdose but fuck heath ledger and jimi hendrix etc
clearly at all, I feel that God keeps me sober simply because so many people are dying. 2 of my good friends have died in the last 5 months, one of them had a funeral on Monday. If anything this gives me that much more motivation to try to help people and show them what I did to get well.
This is just a sad statement. clearly only are you stating you don't have any self control and believe you aren't strong enough to overcome shit yourself and some magical being is responsible but you are also stating a magical being just so happens is choosing to help you over the starving niggas in Africa or the poor fuckers that live in North Korea starving their asses off in a dictatorship or those poor motherfuckers all over the world that get shit on every day. Or how about people who wake up one day and find out their child gets cancer and suffers then fucking dies.
Just stop it. Holy shit.
God has a plan for everyone, I don't deserve to live for selfish reasons, I am kept alive as long as I continue to be of service to Him and those around me. That's it. There's no reason for you to be so mad, though it's understandable.
I am well aware that I deserve to be dead in the ground right now, it isn't fucking fair that me and this kid I shot up with both did the same shit, I went and got well and he fucking dies. The fact that I'm okay after having done so many selfish, dishonest, manipulative things is what keeps me doing what I can for others, and the thing I can do best is reach out to other people like me and show them what I did so they can be saved too.